tuhan,kirimkan lah aku kekasih yang baik hati..

perasaan nie sememangnya x patut wujud dlm hidup hku....adoiyai...why is dis thing happening to me......??u noe i cant lose u.....im too in love wif u.....maybe ble berjauhan dgn u,i can accept but in dis matter........i never think dat u will do dis things to me..after ive sacrificed soooo many things for u......puas sorok2 our relationship so dat mummy n papa n ur family x taw....oke,i noe u did dat too....but why shud it ends like dis.....

yet,i still can forgive u cuz i do in love wif u....maybe its too early for me to be wif u...

like u alwiz called me 'budak kecik',n u said i'll be 'budak besar' like u after 2 years..

n i do remember dat u said to me dat u gonna love me like 'a man love towards a lady'...



sumtym,i dunno wheter i shud believe it or not......but my heart insist making me to believe it...



being wif him,is the most best thing happpen in my life.....

when i was in ur room,laying on ur bed,watching u playing guitar n playing wif ur hair...
owh!i really missed dat moments...n at dat tym u were playing 'Fall for you'. song...cuz u noe,its my favourite song...


but for me now,if u love her,be wif her..n let me go...
let me juz be a girl who consider u as a brother..
n let de love between me n u change to love a brother towards a sister...
n im sure,i can adapt wif it....

GOD!!please guide me...be wif me...gimme strenght to face all this situation,...if i can deal wif d situation when u took mama away,i hope i can cope wif dis situation too........dun take away my spirit.....AMIN...

love,
ed